The Unbaked Heart

I know you’ve been there. In the kitchen or in your car, belting out those words with Alicia Keys with no shame. Singing at the top of your lungs maybe with a spatula as your makeshift mic. 

THIIIIS GIRL IS ON FIYYYAAAAHHHH!!!!

Well let me tell you something. I think mama Mary (ya know..Jesus’ Mom) was singing this after the pentecost. And I bet the apostles were singing with her. “THESE BOYS ARE ON FIYAAAAA” Can you imagine what it was like for them to just wait in a room hiding after hell broke loose at the crucifixion? Their leader left them in the dust (literally) and they just sat there and waited on the Lord. I admit, when I read about things that happened in the Bible 2000 years ago, I don’t usually envision them happening in today’s world. But guess what. They do. 

Recently, I’ve been exposed to a ministry here in Phoenix that really focuses on using the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Every Wednesday, there’s a prayer meeting on an indian reservation where people are invited to let the Holy Spirit take reign over their hearts. People there are constantly telling stories about miraculous healings and conversions that are happening when they call upon the Holy Spirit in complete faith. The power is REAL. 

After conversing with a priest about the gifts of the Holy Spirit, I made a decision to desire the Holy Spirit more in my life. Well ever since that day, I continuously stumbled across bible verses that felt like God taking a megaphone to my ear. Literally the next morning I read this : 

"A shoot shall come out from the stump of Jesse and a branch shall grow out of his roots. The spirit of the Lord shall rest on him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding,  the spirit of counsel and might,  the spirit of knowledge and the fear of the Lord.” - Isaiah 11:1-3

Okay okay okay God…I get it. I am a stumpy broken sinful little tree, and you still promise that goodness and beauty will come forth through me. I just have to have faith. 

When we judge our perceived failures and successes based on our own human capacities, we forget that it is the power of God that allows flowers to blossom out of our withering branches. It isn’t our doing, it’s HIS. 

So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who causes the growth. - 1 Cor 3:7

Again…the megaphone. It is not my work that transforms people…it is only God through the power of the Holy Spirit. I just have to give God permission to work through me and respond to his invitations to be his light in the darkness. To be a burning flame. The same flame he gave his Apostles. THE SAME ONE.

"For this reason I remind you to stir into flame  the gift of God that is within you through the laying on of my hands; for God did not give us a spirit of cowardice, but rather a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline. Do not be ashamed, then, of the testimony about our Lord or of me his prisoner, but join with me in suffering for the gospel, relying on the power of God, who saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works but according to his own design. This grace was given to us in Christ Jesus before the ages began, but it has now been revealed through the appearing of our Savior Christ Jesus, who abolished death and brought life and immortality to light through the gospel.”  -2 Timothy 1:6-10

…..oh Tim. You always know just the words to say. 

So friends, put those unbaked hearts of yours in the oven and set yourself on fire for the Lord, because he is waiting with some lighter fluid. 

I will give you a new heart, and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. -Ezekial 36:26

As I continue to live daily life with the mothers at Maggie’s Place, I find myself constantly asking God to guide me on what to say, what to do, and how to act. Dealing with women who just got out of rehab, who are fighting court cases for custody of their children, have been abused their entire lives, and have very little relationship with God….well it’s all very new to me. I have a Studio Art degree, not a Masters in Social Work. But what I do have is the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit is working. I will expand more on that later. 

I can’t believe I am going to say this but….Let’s get lit for the Lord. Timothy asked us to. Heaven is not for the indifferent soul.